Ready to start again!

So now we are to the last month or two. For the last few months we've been putting forth effort and hoping for an embryo! But no such luck.

I admitted defeat this month and bought Taking Charge of Your Fertility. I've read the first part. I dusted off the Basil thermometer and found my password to fertilityfriend.com and started taking my temp each morning at 7 a.m.

We have moved past the 'let's see what happens' stage and we are entering 'let's get down to business.'

Each month I 'watch' my new 'friends' get pregnant and I see my old friends on facebook announce pregnancies and post new pics of their babies and all I can think of is "I want that!' (ok and 'I really hate them!' but you know that's just the bitter, selfish me poking herself out because I'm really happy for all my 'friends')

Now anytime now I'm expecting a call telling me my cousin is in labor. The cousin who got pregnant in January, the month I wanted to get pregnant in and while I'm really happy for her and can't wait to hold her baby girl, all I can really think is 'Gosh, I wish that were me.'

So now here we are. Waiting for me to ovulate so we can 'get down to business' and I'm just so tired.