16 weeks

15 weeks 3 days

I'm heading for my monthly appointment tomorrow. I'm super excited. I can't wait to hear the baby again. I'm 16 weeks today and feeling great! Seriously. I hate to say it too loudly but my symptoms are seriously minimal. I am having a lot of hip pain the last few days but I can deal with it. Things are starting to feel really real now. I'm waiting impatiently to feel the baby. Things are going well this week.

13 weeks

I'm 13 weeks and 3 days. I felt gigantic today!! :) I think it was the pattern on my sweater. I'm craving tons of artificial fruit flavoring. I think it's because my body doesn't know what real fruit tastes like so it's going with what it knows ... grape soda and starburst. I haven't had too much sickness really. I did get sick one day this week but I think it was because I waited too long between meals. I've had headaches almost every day this week. Can't wait until I look pregnant but I don't want to rush it.

Second Tri today!

I've finally made it to 13 weeks. I feel like a big weight has been lifted at the same time it feels as if my insides are all squished together as I sit here. We went to the doctor last week and everything is looking great. We heard the heartbeat. Mark made it through his first girly doctor appointment and lived to tell the tale. Not much is going on right now with us. I bought some maternity clothes but am not big enough to wear them yet. They were on sale and I couldn't pass it up. I'm just ready to begin the second trimester.

Approaching the second appointment

I officially meet the doctor tomorrow. It's my second appointment and I'm a little nervous. I'm hoping we get to hear the heartbeat. I just want to confirm it's still there, beating away. I'm ready to move into the second trimester and I'm ready to purchase some baby supplies! I found the cutest car seat online the other night and every impulse in my body is urging me to just order it! Mark on the other hand is being the voice of reason and reminding me I don't need to order our car seat at 12 weeks. Maybe he'll at least let me buy another onsie or something this weekend! :)

10 weeks 4 days

Here it is 10 weeks 4 days. Possible bloat. Those were the pants I was 'forced' to wear to work last night because my black and my grey pants were dirty. I'm wearing sweatpants to work on Saturdays from here on out. They are way more comfortable than my jeans. :)

First belly shot at 9 weeks

9 week 2 days

Well here it is. The first pictures. Not much to look at yet but I wanted to have a couple shots of 'before' so that I could compare later on. You can see the slight bulge in the bottom picture but only if you knew what it looked like before pregnancy.

Sigh of relief

Another milestone down. I outed myself at work and on Facebook. My boss was great. He started offering me advice. He wanted to make sure I was taking vitamins and eating healthy. It was a bit sweet. Once I told my boss I couldn't stop myself. I told the Facebook world. I definitely couldn't stop telling people. Now my secret is out.

The big day has arrived

I'm telling my boss tomorrow afternoon. I'm freaking nervous. As I sit here reflecting upon how I'm going to do it and watching P Diddy's assistant search at the same time, I think to myself 'It could be worse. Puffy could be my boss.' I feel like a little girl going into the the teacher's office to ask permission for something. I'm an adult woman for goodness sake. I'm going to be a mother. A MOTHER! Why can't I pull it together and be excited about outing myself at work. Once I out myself at work I can out myself to the world! Why do I feel that my boss is going to be like 'No that's not going to work for me.' It's too late for that! It's going to have to work, it's happening! I feel like such a little girl!

We have a heartbeat!

My first appointment was a great success. We immediately went to the ultrasound room at 8 a.m. Almost instantly the heartbeat was there. She said the baby was in the lowest part of my uterus, laying there like on a hammock. I thought 'Yep, Baby is just like us....lazy :)' Because of the positioning she said that it would be harder to get the best picture. But we saw our little blob.

My due date is moved back to Aug. 11. I'm officially 8 weeks.

I can't describe the happiness of seeing the heart beating. It was wonderful. It was beating at 176. She said it could have been elevated because I was anxious.

After our ultrasound we met with her a bit longer where she went over medical history and the joy of breastfeeding. She also encouraged us to get the H1N1. So we did. We were a bit apprehensive about it but once she said pregnant women who get the flu are more likely to miscarry.....off we went to roll up our sleeve.

My mom picked me up from the appointment since Mark had to go to work. She immediately picked up my father and drove us about town telling family members as we went. So now our whole family knows our news and a few friends.

I'll be telling the world (my work) next week. Today life is good.

Tomorrows the day

My appointment is tomorrow!! I can't wait. I have no idea what to expect. I'm so excited and nervous all at once. I know we are getting an ultrasound. That's the part I'm MOST excited for and I think it's first thing. I'm really nervous about the rest of the appointment. I hate the annual visits but I'm thinking that maybe because I'm going to see the baby that I'll be able to get through the rest of it. Propping my legs up on the table is not something I look forward too. Especially since I think I'm seeing my 'new' doctor. It's a man! I usually see the nurse practitioner. She doesn't do babies though :( Maybe I'll get lucky and get to see her for the first appointment. That would be ideal.

Mark is going with me to the first appointment. He's super excited about going for the ultrasound. I think he's like me and is uneasy about the rest of the appointment.

I don't think I'm going to be able to sleep tonight.

Counting down the days

It's the week of my first appointment. I'm so excited and nervous all at the same time. I can't wait until Thursday. I have so much going through my mind as I wait. Some ridiculous and some just crazy. I just want to get there and get confirmation that everything is going ok with my pregnancy. I've had the minor cramping and brown spotting since around 4 and a half or 5 weeks. I know it can be normal but I just want to make sure that mine is ok.

Then my mom and husband decided they would put knew crazy thoughts into my head. Like I can't come up with crazy thoughts on my own. My mom keeps asking if I think it's possible that I could have twins. (I'm a twin so it's all she knows) I think that that's a pretty slim chance. She conceived us while on clomid and that increases the chances of twins so I think that's where that comes from.

I found my mom huddled in the corner on Christmas gossiping with Mark about my supposed 'bump.' They have decided that I look way further along than 8 weeks and that maybe I actually conceived in October and therefore am further along than I think. I did have that phantom UTI in October that I could have sworn it was a UTI only to have the test come back negative. That lasted for a few weeks in October and then went away. I did have a period but I don't remember how heavy it was. I also took a negative Dollar Store pregnancy test. But now Mark thinks maybe I threw it away before the results registered. I didn't let him look at it so he doesn't believe it was negative.

When we got the positive all my Dollar Store tests were super faint and they never got darker. I never took a digital in October. My digital changed to positive at what I think would have been about 10 dpo.

Also tonight my friends all decided I 'looked' pregnant. And truthfully I'm starting to wonder. I can definitely feel my stomach below my belly button and it's really hard. My friend let me push on her nonpregnant belly bloat and it's definitely way more squishy than what I have going on. I really don't think I should be able to feel my uterus at this point.

So now I'm doubting all things I thought I knew. I just want to yell 'It's bloat people! It's bloat!' But I'm wondering if there is a chance I conceived a month earlier....

I guess I'll find out on Thursday! Just a few more days and I'll have all kinds of answers.....
Is the baby ok? How big is the baby? How many weeks am I? And is there only one in there??

Always waiting

I thought the two week wait was horrible. Well I think I was wrong. This last week was soooooo long it wasn't funny. And I have a couple more weeks before I get to my first appointment. This week has been pretty overwhelming for me. I had some brown spotting and some light cramping. Not knowing what to expect, I was freaked out. I called the doctor yesterday and they assured me that it was normal to have the brown spotting and even the cramping. I'm to take it easy until my next appointment and call if things get worse or different.

My first appointment is Dec. 31st. This in itself puts me in a dilema. Do we go ahead and tell our family at Christmas as we had planned or wait until New Years? I really want to tell but I really want to make sure everything is ok before we start blabbing to the relatives. We've already told every member of our immediate family possible. I just worry that something may go wrong and then I'll have to deliver that awful news to EVERYONE.

I don't know how I'm going to make it to Dec. 31st. I'm ready to push past Christmas and get to the New Year.

It's finally happened

I'm pregnant. After 11 long months of waiting we found out the Sunday after Thanksgiving that I was pregnant. This month we decided to try PreSeed. That's really the only thing different we did. We used it everytime this month. I wish I had broke down and spent the 20 dollars sooner. It was well worth it. Now we sit and wait until Dec. 31st which is my first appointment.

Still waiting

I got tested for a UTI. Negative. I told the person who took me back for the test that I was TTC (she herself was VERY pregnant). She said she had issues with UTIs when she was trying. So when she called with my negative results she said .... 'This could be a good thing!' *in a really excited voice* Really that's not what a 2wwer at 4 dpo needs to hear!! So yesterday I was CONVINCED I was pregnant. Today not so much. And the downward spiral begins.

The craziness begins

I'm 3 dpo.....I have a headache, may be getting a UTI and slight pain in my back. And the analyzing starts. 

Waiting again

I think I'm in the 2ww! My temp. went of gradually the last two days so I'm waiting to see what Fertility friend is going to tell me. And I have a confession to make. I think out of the 10 cycles we have been trying to have a baby this one counts the most! We put forth major effort this month. I know I wasn't ovulating during the time were were trying for the first at least 6 months and this month I really think we had good timing. I know with great timing it can take awhile but I just have such hope for this one. I pulled out all the stops and Mark is now exhausted!! And I think I'm developing a UTI from all that 'trying.' :) But if I'm pregnant it will be worth it! I started my cranberry pills today and now I'm sitting and waiting to see what happens.

And the wait begins

It seems like trying to have a baby is all about waiting. Right now I'm waiting to ovulate and then I'll be waiting to test. I'm on day 12-ish of my cycle and since last cycle I didn't ovulate until day 18 or 20 I still have a while. I've always been an impatient person and this is driving me crazy! I think I'm going to buy another pregnancy book because that helped pass the time while I was in cycle 1 through 5-ish. I'm going to know more about conceiving and babies than I ever thought I would by the time I finally get pregnant. I guess I'll be making a bookstore stop this weekend!

New addition

Today has been a bit of a rough day for me. I think by tomorrow I will be onto cycle 9 or 10 (I'm losing count). My temp dropped a bit this morning.

Also my day began with my mom calling me at 8 to tell me my cousin was at the hospital having her baby. While I was very excited, I was also a little sad. My cousin announced her pregnancy at the end of our first official trying to conceive month. I was so excited for her at the time because I couldn't help but think we would have babies at the same time. 

This baby was very much a surprise for her and she wasn't expecting to be pregnant at this stage in her life but I was sooo excited thinking I would be going through it with her. Each month I was like 'That's ok because we will still have a baby close together.'

Well today she had her baby girl. She was 37 weeks and I'm not even on week one yet. 

My mom called me at 1030 to tell me to go up to the hospital to check on things. My whole extended family was at work so I was acting as family representative. While I was brushing my teeth she called to tell me the baby was here and I needed to hurry up.  She was born at 1039.

So I drove up to the hospital, tearing up a little on the way but handling it pretty well. I got to the hospital at 1115 and rushed up to the room. I walked in and saw the baby and felt myself tearing up but I got it together before anyone noticed and got to see my new cousin. 

Today really just makes me want to put even more effort into next cycle. I think now that we are charting things are going to be better. I'm just really ready to start my period and get this next cycle started. I know that when we are ready God is going to give us the baby we are supposed to have but days like today make me really impatient for that day to come sooner rather than later.

So even though I'm sad and wish I were sharing in the joy with my older cousin, I'm also relishing in the fact that 'I got to see the baby first out of all my large extended family!!!' And within 20-ish minutes of her being born!!! And I will be parking it on the couch baby hogging this new baby this weekend and taking her the hand-made quilt I made especially for her. 

Now if they would just name her I would be really happy!

Shredding

I've gained quite a bit of weight over the last few months. I kept thinking 'I'll get pregnant and then it won't matter.' Well I'm not pregnant and I'm starting to look like I have a little bump growing. If I'm not going to be pregnant I can't look like I'm pregnant because then I start daydreaming that I am and the bumps real. This just leaves me further up the crazy ladder.

So I'm starting the 30 Day Shred. I know it's going to be tough but I really think I'll start to feel better once I shed those pounds I've gained. I seriously used the excuse to Mark not too long ago that I was just padding my nest for our embryo.

It's really time I re-evaluate and stop late-night snacking.

And we are waiting

Well this is my first month charting and I think it's going well. There were a few nights that I couldn't sleep so that might have thrown my temps off but I think overall everything is looking good. It appears that I ovulate later than I was expecting, which could explain a lot. My chart has me ovulating on day 17. I'm really not expecting a big fat positive(bfp) this month because I was confused with my chart and frustrated and then Mark hurt his back so that really wrecked our chances for the month I think. But there is still a slim chance and I'm going to hold onto it! :) I told him next month he can't do anything to his body or mind to get us off track. I just thought I would update the blog as to where we are right now. Not much is happening just waiting until we can test.